that week after we stopped talking, you drunk dialed me at two in the morning. I always used to stay up until around three. That one night I decided to go to bed around twelve. I will always regret that more than anything. And I’ll always miss our late night, five hour long phone calls.
This is going to sound retarded. because everything that comes out of my mouth is foul and terribly thought out, but oh well. so, kevin. I texted him today. stupid? yes. pointless? yes. do I regret it? no. It kinda showed me that he doesn’t like me nor want me. I feel sorta worthless. it’s kinda like, a boy who sees himself as nothing, is who I see as everything. and that boy, loves a girl that I can honestly say is trash and not feel bad about it. so I guess I don’t feel worthless in the world, just in the eyes of the person who it matters most. which is kinda worse, huh? Oh well, I’ll get over it. maybe.
Thanks to my pomegranate raspberry juice~